Holiday Payments

So I took a break to prepare for my re-entry to therapy. I wanted to be able to vocalize true goals, dig deep, and get the most out of this new season. Instead I had some final exams, didn’t get the grades I expected, but was shown grace by some great professors who truly mean well.

But you can tell this is supposed to be about the holidays. Well let me tell you, Christmas started out how most holidays do. My horrible self talk had me thinking in ways I really shouldn’t. Began going through the reaffirming stories I have. Just not good at all.

Long story short, I had to start really thinking about what my therapist said earlier in the week “what if they can’t provide what you need?”. When he asked, I didn’t know how to respond. I always had the thought that things could be much better, but “what if”. It was a reality that sits in every so often and it be hurtin, ya feel me.

Things changed and I am now processing that even if it doesn’t get better, I can be great full. We shouldn’t be comparing ourselves all the time. It’s ok to have a different scenario from the masses. It important to remember that social media is a presentation of people’s best moments, not their average, and certainly not their worst.

So I leave you with this, live YOUR best life. Do that thing, speak your needs, and move purposefully. Happy holidays, see you in 2021.